▫ Nonsense of a deranged boy.

Some things seem to good to be true.
If only you could tell if they were.

Day 4 of our relationship.
Zee called me at 2.15pm just now.
She tells me that her parents do not want us together.
I try to tell her it's okay, that we could work things out.
She doesn't want to try. She wants to be just friends.
I told her we could keep things secret. No. She hangs up on me.

I tried calling her back several times.
She answers but she always ends up hanging up on me.
Eventually she doesn't want to answer anymore.
It took me a long time to get the message.
She broke up with Shaun for the same reason.
Only she didn't tell him and now he hates her for it.
Now she breaks up with me.
I probably hate her a little, but at the same time I can't let go.

Me and Zee had a little argument throughout the calls.
Now I think she won't talk to me anymore.
I'm just another desperate boy who wanted her back.
We could probably be best friends soon if I did not argue.
Now, she's gone. And she'll never come back ever.
By January, I can only see her everyday at school.
Laughing along with her friends, oblivious that I exist again.
And I can just linger away from my friends to cry.

Zee wasn't just any other girl.
Losing Zee is like losing the last piece of gold in the world.
She has a heart of gold that enchants every guy she makes friends with.
Right now, it doesn't matter if see doesn't want to be with me anymore.
Right now, all I want from Zee now, is to be friends again like we once were.

I'm gonna miss so many things about you, Zee.
The way you smile and look at me so cheerfully.
The smell of you which you never notice.
The warm hands that wrapped around mine.
Your tiny little fingers which move around when I hold them.
The laugh you emit when you're happy.
There's so much to forget.
Now when I hear Fireflies I feel like bursting into tears.
I've tried not to cry so many times today.
And so many times I failed to prevent it.

Our relationship was probably the most pathetic of your's.
I'm sure you've had more relationships before me.
I don't know if they all ended the same way.
Four days of love, no hugs, no kisses, we didn't even see each other.
And your friends and mine will scoff at the number of days we lasted.
Maybe, you'll just tell them, I wish I was never with him. 
Zee's last words to me were.
" I just want to be alone right now, 
I'll talk to you when I feel better. "
This better is never. Unless you prove me wrong, we end here.
Goodbye, Zee. So long, goodbye.