▫ Nonsense of a deranged boy.

Some Jackie Chan show was on TV.
I said hi to Zee on msn when she came online.
C - Hey! ;D
Z - You know.
Z - It took me 12 hours to realise what love was.
C - And what about us? o.o
Z - What the fuck, you call that love?
And I just stared at the computer and cried.
---------------------------------------------------
Zee and I were having a drink at Starbucks.
Nobody said anything, she pulled out her earphones.
And she put them on.
C - Hey, take 'em off! 
Z - I do what I like.
Zee said when she puts on her earphones,
it means she doesn't wanna say anything.
And I just sat quietly and felt depressed. 

I woke up, after each moment.
These were nightmares about Zee.
Happened on two days, back to back.
Perhaps I'm just scared of losing Zee.
I don't want to lose you, Zee. :(
Don't ever let these nightmares come true.

I woke up at 12.30pm today.
Sick since yesterday, although I felt better today.
Didn't have the chance to take a shower.
Had to leave for the dentist a short while after I got changed.
I sms-ed Zee every hour since I woke up to check on her.
There were no replies until 4.32pm

I got really worried about Zee. :(
Did something happen? Was she still asleep?
Maybe she doesn't wanna talk to me today.
Was kinda down, I almost cried a few times. ;(
The arrival of her message calmed me down -
" I'm sorry kai kai D:
been kinda busy today, i'll talk to u tonight kay,
love you <3 "
Aww, Zee. :')
Soon after, I heard Fireflies on the radio and smiled.

Went for music class and all, reassured.
But I still felt so sick. -.-
I don't wanna go to my cousin's wedding tomorow. D:
Maybe, I should act very sick and I can stay home.
I was thinking, if my parents left for the wedding.
I could ask Zee to come over until and go just before they come back.
Just to hang out together around my place. :)

Didn't do much until 11 just now.
I told Zee I'd call her, so yeah.
We talked for a bit, but she had a headache. :|
So she said she wanted to go to sleep.
Aww, we only talked for 5 minutes. :(
Might go to sleep soon. Night!

p.s - I love you so much, Zee! ♥ :)