▫ Nonsense of a deranged boy.

I've been drowning out the sounds from everything else around me for so long.
My headphones are plugged on the computer and the music just went on and on.
I was practically oblivious to my surroundings most of the time.

I just stopped the music, and relaxed for a bit.
It's quiet. 
No firecrackers? Did the neighbor's kids died?
I haven't heard a single pop since dusk. For the first time since the first day of Puasa.
Nothing much is going on anywhere else. They're no sounds at all.
Peace at last?


I was just thinking about the simple mistake I made to Deb.
Silence allows me a moment to think.

I guess caring too much becomes annoying?
Sigh.
I always get the feeling I'm doing something wrong.
Yet, I wouldn't trust that feeling and blame it on being paranoid.
That's always my conclusion. " I'm just paranoid, nothing's wrong. " 

Everything's wrong, my dear friend.
Somehow the pieces just come together easily enough,
at least not enough for my feeble mind to understand my own stupidity.
Annoying was once a simple word to me.

Now that I'm deemed annoying, it's a little more complicated that I'd appeared before.
Life's tough. :\
Stupid life.
FML, as any loser would say.

" Congratulations, Chris!
You're a loser! :D "

Wtf?