▫ Nonsense of a deranged boy.

I'm in a slightly better mood right now.
Still a bit doubtful about how other things would work out though. :\


This post is called " Bears. " because here, two key words.
Yoga (the bear) and unbearable.


About Yoga. Jamie did a hilarious caricouture art on him.
Not a bear as I would expect it to turn out.
But rather, him in a turtle suit. The drawing is a bit exaggerated (did I spell it right?) on facial details.
My friends who know him knows what this means. :)
OMG, teh dotsa. :D



As you can see in the picture above, it's not very clear,
but his dots are there. Somewhere in that holy bear light. :D
Aww, shucks. You could go up to my Facebook account link,
it's on the right on the tabs " Others Places I Exist ",
or by clicking on that " Add Me On Facebook? " button below the blog header.



Well, on to the 2nd part of Bears. Unbearable.
What's unbearable?
Recently, I've been caught up in a really bad mood.
Though I still try to appear happy for the sake of it.
I don't know why I'm in a bad mood,
but I would put it aside to too much negative points of thinking. 

Form 4 is harder to keep up with than I thought.
Although at this point we can still be pretty laid back,
from what I see from the last batch.
Maths isn't so hard, but I just don't bother to take the initiative to begin with it.
Homework with the 3 science subjects and english are pouring in like f**k. @.@

The last unbearable is my lack of contact with Deb.
Yeayea, I can hear you say, " Wtf, one day wears you down like this? "
Well, no. It's just the urge to attempt to talk. As my other good friend,
also called Deb(from NZ) tells me I should just try now than in a week's time.
She said I should do so because if I do talk to her in a week's time,
she's probably gonna say " Now you're talking? ". 
Deb(NZ) said she would also feel bad and think of me more badly if
I do not even try to talk to her. 

I told Deb(NZ) that if she wants to talk to me,
I only consider it that way if she talks to me first before next Tuesday. 
Though, I feel kinda bad not talking to her.
Ahh, shit. It's just the unbearable urge to talk her, that's it. 
I ignored her comment on a picture I also commented on facebook,
she was sort of asking me what did I mean by a particular statement.
That makes me feel worse than I already have. ):

I wanted to contact her only by offline message.
She sent an apology by IM, I only had the time to reply: " 6 Days ".
Then I had to change and bathe. I wanted to type more,
but she was already online. I'd prefer not to have a direct talk to her.
Therefore breaking my own promise to myself. 

Maybe it's sorta like a test to me. I've never been able to keep my stupid mouth shut,
not until it was too late. I must restrain myself this time.. 





Emo shiet, man. ._.
I found this interesting picture while browsing photobucket.
Kinda something I can relate to when I was in Form 2.